I'm Dreaming

So 80s night was more fun than usual. My good friend Johnny had his birthday there, I got the VIP treatment, was hit on a few times, and talked to Steve and

Now lets talk about my dream with Erik Rhodes in it.
So in the dream, I was meeting some friends, him and others at an unknown industry event. Tell me why this fool Erik doesn't look me in the eye when I'm shaking his hand and just brushes me off. I surprisingly didn't get mad though. It's probably because I know that he would do that in real life to people he doesn't like. I was just so glad to finally meet him and grab his bicep regardless if he liked me or not.

Erik Rhodes

It's sad that someone who is so known, who has or had a life and is in a relationship; weather or not he wants to mention it, feels so alone. I honestly believe that he could be that miserable. I would just like to officially say that I know what that's like. To have so many people around you (friends, family, whatever), that supposedly are there for you, through "thick or thin..." BULLCRAP!

One thing that I've learned and I'm glad that I've realized this early, is that no one is really there for you. I mean, if you are in a relationship, that's another story James. But for all the rest of us, we are alone. As a product of being raised by the government (CPS), I know fullwell that you have to make your life how you want it. You should be "selfish" to an extent. But James, when you have someone right there, by your arm, take advantage of that. I have yet to be in a gay relationship or in a relationship at all in 6 years. I am fortunate, according to the odds, I shouldn't even be here: USA Today article

Long story short, I am glad to be alive and hope that if anything, you take a look at your life, your physical and/ or mental health and give yourself some credit...

Eric Rhodes

More of him... ♥

A New Day

Now that finals are over, I am going to take these next few days to relax before the next big shoot. Of course I'll still go to the gym every day but it's such a relief to not have clients or teachers to impress with projects.

Oh, on another note, I just got my hands on an exclusive copy of Erik Rhodes' new video with Francois Sagat. Uh... It's basically the best scene ever. If I had ever had lusted over Erik, that time would be now. It's too bad he's taken. I'd take good care of him... bipolar and all

In Lust

There's guys and then there's this guy.



Erik will always be that guy, until he's single again (heaven forbid).



There's nothing better than a big burly hunk who can take it like a champ.



If I ever do a shoot again, he'd be the one I'd love to top. Just look at that hump. He would love to sit on my lap.



One can dream, can't he?



These were all taken from his Underneath It All blog that's located in the side bar -->